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Thursday, May 5th, 2005
7:49 pm	Wish I was picking up the ladies... My good friends from school are out, once again, picking up the ladies, and I don't get to go because I am a lady. Those guys just slay me with their humor. Rick is a pirate. He is the one of the coolest people in this world, and I think that if there was a contest he would definately be in the top 3... I would be number 1, duh. Luke is my little red headed man. He is one of my best friends in the entire world and just adore him! He is currently in a weird situation with a girl named Whittney, who I believe is just afraid to commit to him because from what I understand she just got out of a long term relationship. Good luck Luke. Kevin, well there are about a million things I could say about him. He is half Taiwanese and half American. He is extrememly funny, but the ladies don't get that side of him at first. I just love Kevin, he is so funny. He is currently writing a script for a show which I know will be a huge success if anyone ever gets to see it. And those are the guys from school that I hang with the most. Work sucks. Its the same old bullshit. Nothing interesting there. I am hoping to transfer schools after this quarter. Guess thats all for now. The O.C. is on. Lata. Charly (Comment on this)
Friday, December 10th, 2004
9:35 am	I'm about to fail.... Not joking. I am about to fail my intro to video class. My stupid footage isn't compatable with the school tape decks, espccially since I shot using a Hi8 camera and I need to convert it onto a minidv. If I don't have this, I fail the class. We'll see what happens. My friend Luke is going to help me though, he is the best in the world for doing this! I really hope I get it shot, edited, and turned in before 6:00. If I can do that, the perhaps I will not fail! I shure hope I don't! Guess we'll see. Hope I don't fail! Charly Current Music: nothing, just people talking (Comment on this)
Friday, November 26th, 2004
11:31 am	Dance like a fool when no one is watching... ...I do. I never write in this thing, I don't know why, guess I just don't have time, or feel like it, but things are just wierd right now I guess. Kevin is still gone... killing me!!! I haven't seen Krystena much this week, I 've been busy working and going to school and she's been busy as well... you know her, boys and work... Well one boy in particular. Some guy I canll 'G' only because I can't pronounce his name correctly. I've been trying to stay busy to keep my mind off of Kevin, you know, just doing the usual... going to strip clubs, shooting up, drinking until I pass out and paying hookers to not tell that I killed their pimp. That's me a regular party animal. Reality is: I sit at home and do nothing. It has been quite nice actually to come home and do nothing, or just being at home. GOD I MISS KEVIN!!!!!! ONE (1) MORE DAY!!!! WAHOOOO!!!! (pucker up baby!) Today I am going to go shopping and get most of my Christmas stuff done. I am afraid to venture out into the crazy world today though, because I know people are going crazy!!! over these "hot" deals and such. I am going to try to save some of my money though because I don't want to eat left over Thanksgiving food until the middle of December, because believe me... IT WILL HAPPEN!!! Only three (3) more weeks of school!! I am so excited. I am going to finally quit working at the law firm so I can have some time to myself during the day before I have to go to my new job. I make pretty good money there. I made more in two weeks at my new job, working 33 hours, than I made at the lawfirm working 50+ hours at the law firm. So I think I made a pretty good decision taking this job. Now I can pay the bills and not starve. I am looking into buying a new laptop, well I don't have one now, but I am going to get one. I have to get an Apple/Mac for school to do all of my editing on, so I am going to get that. It was only cost me just over a thousand dollars ($1000.00+). It will be worth it though because I can use it in the future as well when I graduate from college and start working for real. I am so excited about it! My grandma had a date this weekend. It's pretty sad that she has had more play than me this week. I am so pathetic!!! I need my Kevin back!!!!! I have so much to tell him!!!! Some one is interested in our house. They are coming sometime this weekend to look at it again, to show parents or something. I hope they buy it so that we are homeless for a while so I can move into Kevin's house and have lots of fun!!! I'm going to go fold the towels and vaccum. See you all later... Who "you all" is, I'm not very sure seeing as how no one reads this, like for real yo! Later. Current Mood: excited Current Music: Black Betty (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 25th, 2004
10:50 pm	Come back to me!!! Kevin is still gone. Its been almost an entire week! I haven't talked to him since last Saturday, when he left for his cruise! Ahhh!!! I miss him soo much! I have so much to tell him and he isn't here for me to tell him anything! I can't wait to see him! I am going crazy!!! Went to a movie to day... Christmas with the Kranks. It was pretty good I suppose. Nothing breath taking about it though, although it did keep me on the edge of my seet for a few scenes. I'm going to be, I have a lot of work to do tomorrow! Later all! Current Mood: tired Current Music: T.V. commercials (Comment on this)
Monday, November 8th, 2004
1:44 pm	WTF!! GwenSFreak's LJ stalker is daisyjenn5! daisyjenn5 is stalking you because your LiveJournal is just SO damned interesting. They are also getting with your significant other! LiveJournal Username: LJ Stalker Finder From Go-Quiz.com This amused me. Haha. Its been a long time, I'm sure, I don't know when the last time I updated this was, but I'm srue you can figure it out. Not a whole lot has changed, I graduated, started college, and now I'm having one hell of a time!! Krystena and I have been hanging out a lot lately, but I miss Jennifer, no one could ever replace her. Kevin is going on vacation soon, and I will be here alone with Krystena, Jennifer, and my cat. We are trying to sell our house and get the hell out of conyers. I'm glad, but then again, I am kind of sad about it. Who cares though. I have such a bad headache right now from this headband. I'm going to go get some apple juice. Later fools! Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Complete and utter silence!!! (Comment on this)
Friday, June 25th, 2004
9:09 pm	A donkey ate my homework... I was watching Full House today, like usual, and Michelle made $221.00 selling lemon aid to hot, sweaty construction workers in her back yard. Aunt Becky refered to them as having "hot bods", whatever that means... Anyway, she bought a donkey with the money she earned and the donkey at Stephanies Geography project, a map of the United States. I started wondering: if I had $221.00 and I were Michelle, what would I spend my money on, and then it came to me, strippers. Theres nothing like a 7 year old little girl and a room full of strippers. So work sucks. I have to do this thing now, its called something like "slaving away for the man full time" or some crap like that. I'm not really sure why I do it. I guess its because I get all the free attitude from snotty 21 year-olds that I could possibly ever want, and a whole $5.35 an hour, but after taxes, its more likt $3.25 an hour. I hate my job. Well school is finally out. Yes I did it. I graduated. Thank you, but please, keep your excitement to a minimal, I don't want to have to clean anything up that I didn't mess up. I'm in search of a new job... and God only knows that I would rather rip out eye balls and eat them with a fork than work another day in that miserable little office with those miserable little people. Enough of that. I don't have to go back to school until October 4th-ish. Because that is when it is supposed to start. I sure do hope that is when it really does start and Krystena isn't just pulling my leg... By the way, Krystena is back in town. Just saying that makes me want to go change underware, due to the fact that I just crapped myself because I am so excited. We have been "hanging out" (or what ever it is you crazy kids call it these days) a lot since she got home. We went to see 'The Get Up Kids', 'Thrice' and 'Dashboard Confessional' last Saturday on the 19th of June. We had such a great time, and we even got to eat a pretzel. Well my pizza's done cooking, so I'm going to drop this journal entry faster than a virgins dress on prom night. Keep on truckin', Charly (Comment on this)
Monday, May 3rd, 2004
9:16 pm	The road less traveled... I guess my life is nothing by meaningless dribble, seeing as how no one seems to be interested in what I have to say. Maybe this whole journal thing is a waste of time, or maybe it isn't. Who am I doing this for? Your or me? I guess me, so forget the rest of you. I'm having such a difficult time right now. I am so confused about what I should be doing. If I take the fun, adventurous path, I know I will have so much fun, but I will be left with nothing soon after I choose the path. See this path, we will call it path one, path one, is so much fun, and everytime I have taken this route I have had an unbearably great time, however, path two is more stable yet not as fulfilling. With this path I am also unsure of the consequences, however, I know the results are more permanent. I have fun when I take path two, but I have to create my own fun, and the harsh rapids often thrash my innocence as well as my love for life and turn it to mush. I'm confused and sick to my very core. I am having a nervous break down and I need relaxation... Maybe I'll take a sabbatica. Yea, that would be great seeing as how today was my first day... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 5th, 2004
2:29 pm	What a world, what a world... Well hell, I had a fantastic story already written and what did I do, I had to click on something just to see what it would do, and I screwed it up and lost my story! Ohhh, *sigh*, well it could be worse I suppose. I could have deleted my life!!! A dead Charly is never a good Charly. Speaking of death, (I am so tallented, tying my "death talk" into this "death story"...) I have a true story that freaked me out to post. A girl in my class has this mother you see, she isn't just any ordinary mother though, she is an EMS Paramedic. She was responding to a call one nihgt, a three (3) car pile up. Seven (7) people were involved, and all seven (7) died. When the poilce officer arrived at the scene and asked her how many were involved, she replied, "Seven (7)." The police officer then responded, "Seven. Well how many died?" She replied, " Seven." And the officer asked, "Who is that guy walking around over there?" She replied, "Oh, that is one of the dead guys, he will fall over in any second now." The dead body was pumped so full of adreanilean and it was causing it to move. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 26th, 2003
12:31 pm	I don't really have anything better to do with my time, so I think I will write in my journal. I'm at work, and everyone is gone to lunch, so I am here alone, (except for Kim and Sara, who are in the back somewhere). I am just answering the phones, and I can only look at so many web sites until I start to loose interest, which has now happened, so I will do this, only about 20 mins more though until I get to leave. I can't wait! I don't know what I will do with my time, but I'm sure I will find something to do. I am going to go home and do nothing probably. The season finaly(sp?) of The Real World came on last night. I always have a hard time watching it because I feel like I've grown so close to these seven strangers. I feel like I am a part of their lives, and their arguments, and even their laughter. I will miss all of those people. I can't help but to shed a tear or two, you know how it goes. Guess I'll just have to wait until next season. I can't wait until I get on The Real World, or Road Rules, just depends who will take me, or who won't take me. I have a strong passion for The Real World though, and I really wish that I could be on that show! Someday I suppose... I'm bored with this now. I am going to say good bye now. I have jabbered on about nothing, and I am bored with this empty nothingness that has no meaning on this blank (metaphorically speaking) computer screen. Later... (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 8th, 2003
4:14 pm	Sylvia is alive.... UK Films decided months ago to make a film on the life of Sylvia Plath, my all time favortie author and poet. She wrote The Bell Jar, The Colusus, Ariel, and an assortment of other wroks. She was amazing, and I am sooo extremely excited that she is being recognized in this film. Gwyneth Paltrow plays Sylvia. I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE IT! Not a lot going on. School, work, the usual. I'm ready for Christmas more than ever, because it only means that next semester will be here and I am that much closer to graduation. I hate school. Not so much school as high school. I'm ready for college and a new life to begin. Because after high school it seems that I will be turning the page in the book of my life. Yippie! I am extremely excited, yet very fearful. I anticipate the days to come, yet I dread them more than anything. I love where I am, this whitty, sarcastic, nieve new me is interesting, and I like it. It pisses people off and I think that is funny! I have to finish installing this scanner. Later days... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 5th, 2003
11:03 am	I feel so alone. I don't know what else to do with myself or my time. My friends are all busy working, being with boyfriends or girlfriends, or even just being with friends and they don't want me to tag along. Understandable, I guess. I'm just tired. I know its my senior year and all, but I am thinking of transfering to another school. Who knows what will happen though, right...? Right now I just wish that I had someone to share things with: how I'm feeling, happyness, sadness, and so on. Kevin doesn't even want to be around me anymore. Am I doing something wrong? I think that he just isn't ready to have a girlfriend, not mentaly, or emotionally. I don't think he can manage it well, and I wonder why I am with someone who complains that I want to see them and be with them sometimes. I want someone who isn't going to ditch me for their friends all the time. I'm confused. Kevin has been so mean to me lately, I really don't know why I haven't broken up with him... His mom and I are planning a surprise party for him, and I was over there talking to her about it when he came home and he got pissed and was acting like I was the reason she made him come home, but I wasn't. I don't think he even deserves this party anymore, not from me at least. I need to be with someone who is going to love me unconditionally, and not act like such a jerk to me all the time. I need help!!!! Last night I went over to Jeff's house because he had a little get together with some of his friends, so I went over there and hung out with Ashley and him, it was cool, but not what I would have prefered to have been doing. Who cares, I'm out of here. Current Mood: depressed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 10th, 2003
7:22 pm	It never seems to go away... ...the pain is there, and I don't know how to make it disolve into the nothingness that it once was. Maybe that is because I don't know how to fake it anymore. Seventeen years have gone by, and the sharpness of the pain gets worse and worse. My stomache aches with nervousness, and the veins in my body are filling quickly with the envy that one else can detect. I don't eat anymore, and I don't sleep anymore. I am depressed in so many ways, but I can't let anyone know how I really feel. On the outside I seem to be strong and well adapted to the fast pace around me, but on the inside I feel like a snow-globe that has just been shaken. Every idea I have, and every word that poures from my mouth feel like a mistake. The ones that I really love and care for are the ones that I am pushing away the most, but I don't mean to. I long for the companionship I one had with my fellow peers. I don't socialize the way I used to, and I don't like going out. I would rather sit at home and be by myself, yet at the same time, I long to be out doing what teenagers do best. I feel so alone in this vast world, and nothing seems to be making sense any more. I am trying to put the pieces back together and make myself feel whole again, but there is this tiny place in the bottom of my heart where all of my happiness, laughter, compassion, and integrity is leaking out. I want my friends back; I want to be happy; I want to live my life to the fullest, but I don't feel that I am reaching my potiential. So this is it. This is where I will change the things in my life. I will start being social again. I will regain my confidence, and I will begin to think for myself and be an individual. This year is my last in high school, and I will make the best of it. This is my time to shine, and shine is what I'll do. I want to be so bright that people will have to shield their eyes when they are near me. I am going to be back on top and hold my head up high. This year I am going to try to change not on the out side, but on the inside. I need a spiritual make over, one that will allow me to be happy with myself. I can't be mean to those around me, but I must be more compassionate and considerate for those around me. I want to be the person you envy for once. I guess I will write again soon, for I have many things that must be worked through, and I am glad that I can admit that now. Sooner than later, Charly Current Mood: confused Current Music: My speakers are broken... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 29th, 2002
8:40 pm	oops!! I wasn't finished! So where was I...? Oh yea, that change thing, blah blah, and so on. Well, Birgit is back in Germany, saddness! I really miss her, Spanish isn't any fun without her! I mostly just sleep through that class anyway. Tessa and I have been chillin' like a blizard lately. Thats pretty cool because I never really knew her, she is so devilish! (wink wink, nudge nudge!) My mom got a new automobile. She totaled 'The Cut' (1993 Olds Cut Supreme, red, 2 door, nice!), so she got a new used (oximoron) 2002 Blazer. Its really nice, and red. I like it. I'm still in my Volvo. Yes, 'The Volvo' as everyone refers to it as. I like it. I got a crome tip put on my exhaust, the guy surprised me with it when I had to get a new exhaust pipe put on. Well I'm going to go. I have things to do! Bye! (Comment on this)
8:36 pm	Holy Hoax! It's been too long. Uhh, I've been so busy lately. All my life really consist of anymore is school, work, and (the best for last) Kevin! I don't really mind though. I need to start saving more money. I can't believe how fast this year is going by. It seems like just yesterday summer began and life as I knew it changed for the best. I think its crazy how things turn out. I hate that I don't get to talk to Charlie for hours and hours anymore, and that I don't really go to shows anymore or any of that stuff. I don't even talk to the same people anymore, I have a new group I guess. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 28th, 2002
10:05 pm	Life sucks. Don't ever take part in it unless absolutely necessary! I have no friends. I'm a loner. Kevin canceled on me at the last minute, so I had nothing to do, but be by myself once again. The real world wasn't what I expected, so that sucks. I hate everyone right now. I just hate the world! I'm going to bed. You all suck! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 29th, 2002
6:17 pm	Of course it takes me forever to update again. Should have known... Well nothing really interesting has been happening lately. School starts in two weeks and I'm not ready to go back. I don't want to have to be around people again. I'd rather just sit here and do nothing. Well, hang out with Kevin too, but thats a completely different story. I'm bored, and I have to go. Guess I'll update in a few weeks! (Comment on this)
Monday, July 15th, 2002
12:29 pm	Its been a while since I've updated this thing. Things are good. Kevin's beyond great! I am getting used to smelling of pork, and I have spiders in my bed. I hate spiders! ewww! I've been thinking alot lately. I really miss the way things used to be. I wish I still had the people I used to hang out with to hang out with now, and I wish my pool was fixed, and I even miss seeing my mom at times. I don't miss just being friends with Kevin though. I enjoying being friends and significant others. Hes so good to me. Charlie has moved far away and made new friends and Jennifer and I have our issues. God knows I miss her soo much! But other than me wishing things were different, I can't complain about how things are now. Guess its true what they say. Everything happens for a reason. Guess I'll write more later. Maybe it won't be another month. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 18th, 2002
3:12 pm	Work was easy today. Yester was harder. So many people came in yesterday, it was crazy! Well I'm tired yet I have energy. I don't exactly know how to explain this feeling. I have to work tomorrow, then I have Thursday off. Then, on Friday, they aren't sure if they are going to put me on the day shift or night shift. If I have to work the day shift, I will have the same hours, 10:30-3, if I work night my hours will be from 5-10. There is a problem though. I told Kevin I would to see a movie with him, his mom, and his little cousin. I will talk to them and see if I can get the day shift though. I seem to be catching on pretty good. They told us that once you can work the window then you can do anything else in the resturant. Window is actually the hardest part too, not counting cooking or anything, but while working the window you have to wait on the people at the counter, take money from the people checking out, recieve call in orders, work the window, and so on. Its hard work, but I can do it. I don't know what I'm going to do Thursday. The pool is almost completely drained! No good at all! That guy still hasn't come by to fix it! He was supposed to come either today or yesterday, but he hasn't. I don't want to just sit around all day and watch t.v. either, and I don't have any money to go anywhere, or to get gas. This blows! I can't wait until I get my first paycheck. I know it won't be a lot, but it will be enough to put gas in my car, and I need to pay insurance too. Well I have faith that everything will work out and I will be able to cover all of my expenses. Atleast I hope so! Guess I'm going to go call Kevin and tell him about Friday, and then go get in the shower, I smell like pork... eww. Current Mood: rushed Current Music: Dwarves - Everybodies girl (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 12th, 2002
9:24 pm	I love Kevin! Things are ok I suppose. My mom told me today that she wants to change shrinks. Good, because I don't like this guy as a therapist. He is to talkative! Kevin is the best ever. It seems that everyday he gets to more and more wonderful, but then when I start to think about it, it isn't possible because he is already the most wonderful, loveable, and awesome person ever! I love him so much! I have been horrible to him lately though! I have been horrible to everyone! I hate myself for it, I don't know what my deal is; one minute I am being so nice an sweet to everyone, and then my mood just takes this drastic change. I need to be nice, but I can't help it. My car is awesome, I love driving it, but I will miss driving my moms car... oh well, I will drive it sometime! I got the job at Glenn's B-B-Q too! Yay for me! I went over to Jeffs house today for about an hour or so. He and Becca are so great together. The way he talks about her is sweet. It didn't seem like I was over there for an hour though. We just started talking about whatever, and time flew by. He is soo awesome, I am glad that he is one of my very good friends. That boy is CRAZY! Ok, well I guess that just about sums it all up for today. Friday my sister is coming to town! I can't wait. Its going to be a lot of fun! Ok, well thats it. I am done here! Later fools! Current Mood: loved Current Music: none, again! (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 9th, 2002
7:56 pm	Just the meer thought of the harsh impact of two car colliding gives me the chills. I almost demolished a Ford Explored today due to someone being impatient. I was only running about 50 mph, and I was no more thank 50 feet away I started gaining on the car and they decided to turn out in front of me. Good thing I can drive like Jeff Gordon, or I would be in some serious pain! Then some other lady turned and got in the wrong side of the road. I was swirving all over the place trying to aviod hitting these people. But even if I did get in an accident, it would have been their faults. Its so dark in this room. The light is trying to break through the cracks around the blinds, but with not much success. Tomorrow is going to come so soon. I hate to say it, but so far summer is going by very fast. I don't like it one bit! K, I'm going to go... Bye... (Comment on this)